For the second time in two months I looked down at the bracelet on my wrist – a birthday gift from one of my dearest friends and Bible study sisters – only to realize that the charm was missing. The first time this happened I had just come out of Bible study and on the way to my car prayed “Lord, please let me see it if it dropped on the ground somewhere!”
Amazingly as I opened my car door, the charm was on the floorboard in front of the driver’s seat. It was missing it’s clasp, but there nonetheless. Oh glory! How I praised Jesus for keeping it safe. And about two weeks ago I finally remembered to get some clasps from the craft store to fix it.
Today I spent most of the day at a Women’s Leadership Conference, then went to dinner with another friend and ministry partner to go over our notes. From conference to restaurant to my car … and on the way home I realized once again that my charm was missing.
To say that my heart sank would be a gross understatement. Although I love the bracelet, I love the lady who gave it to me more and to look down at my wrist and have that reminder of her has been so sweet. So to realize it wasn’t there was heartbreaking. Again I prayed, “Lord, I know it’s a lot to ask …”
But the thought that ran through my head this time was that my missing charm represents the season I am walking through with the Lord.
You see, the charm looks something like this:
The missing charm is a metaphor for the lack of faith that I’ve had in certain areas of my life. Namely some food issues I’m having. Using food for comfort instead of relying on God.
Ironically, my Made to Crave book came this morning just before I left for the leadership conference. And that’s a whole other story … That book was lost in transit for almost a week before making it to my house. It seems like every time I turn around God is reminding me that He is the only one I can depend on.
And then just when I realize I’m in the middle of a divine object lesson, God does something totally amazing … as I cleaned out my goodie bag from the conference ~ I found my charm!! I don’t know if that was God’s subtle reminder that I do have faith, small as it is, or if it was a gift for listening to His voice about how small is my faith.
Either way, I think my faith increased a little today.
In Matthew 17:19 Jesus’ disciples ask Him why they could not drive out a particular demon. He replied in verse 20, “Because of the littleness of your faith; for truly I say to you, if you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move; and nothing will be impossible to you.”
Read Mark 10:26 & 27 and Hebrews 11:6. What do these verses say about our relationship to faith and what is possible in our lives?
I’m pretty sure that dealing with my food issues isn’t going to be easy, near impossible by my estimation. Good thing God is able to do abundantly far more than I think or ask. Oh me of little faith …